Sadness and melancoly, My Last Class Day as a Tennager

Last high school da  the best days 4ever...they are going so far away now 

what im going to do without my friends?

honestly , what's next??

i have found shelter  with them

I'm gonna miss them...A LOT

Now tears are  coming and making me fall down with all this sadness

Goodbye teen friends, bothers, sisters, we're almost on difrerent ways now...

 i have lose a GOOD friend ...It Hurts so much, it really hurts!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4oEjVnbYJY

In Fact...my last day was thursday  we had math and english ...it was a very normal
afternoon, my last laugh with my friends
and classmates
Honestly i cant stop crying, i didn't love them sooo much
but that feeling is always there...

On conclusion, i'm weaker than stronger as i thought
i was always considering myself as a hard and strong person, like my mother...but
now, clearly i see that i'm not..
and on graduation day i'm gonna CRY!
Yes...i Will
tell my friends how important they are to me.

Worry...a LOT!!!

About  graduation , University, Plans, DREAMS, 

i HAVE A VERY NWELOT OF PROBLEM MAKING IMPOSIBLE MAH LIFE , ACTUALLY

I HAVE TO STUDY LIKE I HAVE NEVA SUDY IN ALL MY LIFE---

HAVE'NT  WROTE  HERE SINCE JUST LIKE 5 MONTHS WAS HORRIBLE!

BUT I NEE D TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL NOW..

I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT LOVE...

MY ONLY BIG AND SERIOUS PROBLE IS: 

WHAT THE HELL IM GONNA BE??

YES...I HAVE DREAMS,,, AND ARE...RIDICULOUS, STUPIDS, EMBARRAZINGS, AND MAYBE IMPOSIBLE IN THIS LIFE...BU

ON SOMEWAY IM GONNA CHANGE THAT

IM GONNA BE MORE INTELIGENT UP TO NOW!

MY BIG DILEM:

 FOLLOW MY INSECURES DREAMS... OR

SETTLE DOWN AND BE A PROFESSIONAL (OBVIOUSLY, WITH GOD'S HELP)

WELL...ONCE AGAIN...IM THE FOREVER ALONE GIRL, WEIRD, RETRACTED, SHY, AND QUIET GIRL... BUT I REALLY LIKE TO BE ALL OF THAT! ♥

                                                                                                                     AWKWARD*

There are some moments....

I dont found other way to say this...But Now I Feel that ...there are moments when you start to hate everything around you...
I feel like ther's not a scape form a bad dream, that i'm LIVING now...i feel lost, cold, insecure and the more comun ...ALONE, well im alone almost my whole time but now is so diferent... the nes girl is just taking my friends!! and now everybody watch what kind of person is she :) i knew since the begining but all people tinked that i was just jelous about her !! thats not truee!!!
Conclucion:
I have to study more (( A lot more) be more organized and clen :$
I have sooo much work to do ...=_=
Come on ! you can do it!! with God's Help and force everything is gonna be OK!

Well, one week ago the school get stared, and NOTHING is  what i was expected u_u everything is so changed now, i hate changes!!! But im second year high  school now ñ_ñ soo
i dont know what to think about... if i havent friends! thats so frustating!